I went on a date last night.
He was cute and funny. It seems we get along, but we've only been talking for about a week.
I don't like online dating and the unspoken rules. Keep matching with people. Keep talking to a few people at once, don't just put all your energy into one person at a time. You don't even know each other you don't owe them a reply if you're not interested anymore. Yeah but this just happens. Yeah but this is just dating these days. Yeah but everyone does it.
Can everyone just not? People do realise that despite "what everyone else does", that we all have individual needs and attitudes, and we have the ability to decide for ourselves how we want to treat each other?
These days, it seems that people treat others the way they would fruit at the supermarket. Just piff the apple that isn't shiny enough to the side... there's 100 more to choose from. Hold onto the best looking apple, but keep looking at the others, just in case there's a better one. You've got to make sure you hold it though, because you don't want someone else taking it just in case . And you're just waiting in the sidelines with simmering anxiety, wondering if this time, I'll be good enough. People use this as a reason to then treat others the same. Just keep dating and keep your options open, that way you won't get hurt.
But I don't want to make someone else feel this way. It's an awful feeling.
I digress. I went on a date last night, and it would be nice to get to know him at least. But this is modern dating, and I have been rejected left, right, and centre.
He sent me a message a few hours ago. I don't even want to open it. I'm assuming the rejection, and I'd prefer to crawl into a hole and disappear instead.